Tom .... if you weren’t praying for miracles, I’d be more concerned. It surely must be the most natural thing in the world to be doing right now?
I can’t begin to pretend I understand the devastation you feel right now. From such euphoria of Syl doing so well and getting home from hospital to this .....
Never give up hope, Tom. Yes, a new chapter. One you didn’t ever want. But perhaps, with time, short trips home ... or out and about may be possible? Syl has done amazingly well to battle the pneumonia and it’s early days, too, for her recuperation. I have everything crossed for you both that a permanent placement of your choosing comes about quickly and then you can start to think about how you restructure your on-going love and care for her.
Sorry, I can’t credit the person who quoted once here (tried to find it but couldn’t), and it may be out of context but the phrase reflects so much your devotion to Syl: ‘Everything has changed, but nothing has.’
You surely have barely had chance to catch your thoughts these last couple of weeks - so much has happened so quickly?
PLEASE take care, love, Kaz, X