Just sitting here watching mum sleep, she doesn't shout much anymore, sleeps much of the time.I'm so worn out, so frustrated that there is nothing I can do other than sit here and just wait for her to die.
My head is a complete mess, I'm not eating much, not sleeping any better,I have so much to sort out at home Christmas is coming, my son is 19 tomorrow and I just don't care,I don't want this to go on for months but something is keeping her going and I have no clue as to what.
Doesn't help that hubby is permanently positive, it's driving me insane, he still had both of his parents who have been absolutely dreadful as grandparents and yet my parents were the best grandparents ever, I need to talk to him, need him to understand but I know he won't.
She's still eating a little and drinking but she's still losing weight.
I just have this big cloud hanging over me and I can't seem to shift it no matter how much I try. My hormones are all over the place and I just feel so alone.
Sorry I just needed a vent, please pray that this will soon be over for us as this isn't my mother lying here anymore.
My head is a complete mess, I'm not eating much, not sleeping any better,I have so much to sort out at home Christmas is coming, my son is 19 tomorrow and I just don't care,I don't want this to go on for months but something is keeping her going and I have no clue as to what.
Doesn't help that hubby is permanently positive, it's driving me insane, he still had both of his parents who have been absolutely dreadful as grandparents and yet my parents were the best grandparents ever, I need to talk to him, need him to understand but I know he won't.
She's still eating a little and drinking but she's still losing weight.
I just have this big cloud hanging over me and I can't seem to shift it no matter how much I try. My hormones are all over the place and I just feel so alone.
Sorry I just needed a vent, please pray that this will soon be over for us as this isn't my mother lying here anymore.