Hi, Totally new to this forum and very much unsure just how to begin,so perhaps a brief introduction to start? I am 78 years of age and am looking after my wife who has been diognosed as having part dementia and part alzheimers,so right at the start I am confused. M,y wife will not accept that she has dementia so the subject is not mentioned in her presence,the one time it was spoken of she became very angry and agitated and this lasted a couple of days. I am feeling right now absolutely shattered,(run ragged might cover it?) I have a lot of help from my three daughters who live close by and a sitter comes in three times a week so that I can get out for a while. I t is not easy writing this,because my wife is in the habit of wandering all over the house and I would not like her to see what I am up to at this moment in time,later might be different,who knows? I have great difficulty in keeping my patience,but try hard most of the time,if I lose it I only feel guilty,so try to remain calm. My wife is a smoker and also diabetic,and my day from rising in the morning seems to be nothing but lighting cigarettes,making tea and looking after the extensive medications. I guess I should have trained to be a nurse years ago? I think perhaps that for something as cruel as dementia hgappening at my time of life is the cause of the despair and hardship I sometimes feel? I had only planned in my mind to write a few words and here am I rabbiting on as if there is no tomorrow,so best to end for now,but will be back to the forum as often as I am able. Regards to all fellow carers.