That's beautiful, and so moving,
@Chizz. You have a wonderful way of describing the day to day for so many of us here. Living together, apart - that's exactly how it is! It's so strange, as some days we just about manage to take it all in our stride and think we're "almost" coping. Then other days, oh dear! We notice every spill, tremor, confused look, scared expression and cry for help - or denial that help is needed. Every struggle to do what used to be a simple thing, every frustration, delusion and withdrawn, detached gaze. And each of these observations breaks our hearts all over again. It's like suffering a fresh bereavement, over and over continually. Groundhog days, I call these. We're stuck in the routine, the same struggles, and the same feeling of being so sad, but not allowed to express this. We have to keep moving forward - but forward towards what?? Ahead of us are so many more terrible things waiting to break our spirits.
Silence can be deafening, sometimes.