Following on from last post, it's now too late to move him to hospice, everything other than pain relief stopped, he seems peaceful but I'm so scared that when time comes he will be alone. He's been moved to a two bedded ward and when I went to visit this afternoon the other patient was yellow and still and my first thought was that he'd passed away but I was to nervous to venture closer, his daughter arrived thirty minutes later and he had indeed passed away. I feel so guilty, I should have checked and called a nurse. But what then struck me was how often were staff checking the side rooms? The main ward had staff constantly up and down. My brother said the man was breathing at one o clock when they left for quiet time and I arrived at about three. I'm so scared that if something happens when we're not there it won't be noticed for a period of time and that we won't be contacted in time. At the moment dad is on two hourly obs, unable to call for help press buzzer or do anything. The more I think on it the more distraught I'm becoming, I haven't said anything to mum about my thoughts as her blood pressure is already sky high.
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