I'm feeling unwell again. I haven't been sleeping well lately- lots of nightmares, and now I'm low on energy, dizzy, headachy.
This has been going on for years (since before dad was diagnosed) on and off. I even went through a series of tests to find out if I had a problem with my heart at one point but there was nothing found. It's almost certainly related to all the stress I'm under but knowing that doesn't make it any easier to cope with.
Feeling like this it's so much harder to care for dad. Just the idea of having to work all day and then carry on when I get home leaves me worn out and grouchy. And dad's constantly asking me to do things with him- go for a walk, go out somewhere and I don't want to leave the house.
I'm feeling dizzy right now, but short of staring at a wall all day I don't know what I can do. I can't even afford the luxury of a lie in in the morning as dad is calling for me from his room.
And last night he had an episode of sundowning. He was demanding to go to bed from seven. Then he was up again at eight, and nine, and calling to me whether it was time to get up when I went to bed at ten. That didn't exactly prepare me for a good night's sleep.
This is having an impact on me at work too- my job is quite physical, and one of the things I suffer from when I'm run down is vertigo. The last time that happened my boss banned me from doing half the work I needed to, which didn't exactly create a good impression.
I'm really in need of a break right now to refuel.
This has been going on for years (since before dad was diagnosed) on and off. I even went through a series of tests to find out if I had a problem with my heart at one point but there was nothing found. It's almost certainly related to all the stress I'm under but knowing that doesn't make it any easier to cope with.
Feeling like this it's so much harder to care for dad. Just the idea of having to work all day and then carry on when I get home leaves me worn out and grouchy. And dad's constantly asking me to do things with him- go for a walk, go out somewhere and I don't want to leave the house.
I'm feeling dizzy right now, but short of staring at a wall all day I don't know what I can do. I can't even afford the luxury of a lie in in the morning as dad is calling for me from his room.
And last night he had an episode of sundowning. He was demanding to go to bed from seven. Then he was up again at eight, and nine, and calling to me whether it was time to get up when I went to bed at ten. That didn't exactly prepare me for a good night's sleep.
This is having an impact on me at work too- my job is quite physical, and one of the things I suffer from when I'm run down is vertigo. The last time that happened my boss banned me from doing half the work I needed to, which didn't exactly create a good impression.
I'm really in need of a break right now to refuel.