How lovely of you Pauline to say keep in touch I really will , I've felt so so anxious and worried to the extreme point of wanting to close the curtains and stay in bed , don't want to see or speak anyone, Thursday I went to the care home to see my husband he was worse than usual ,I didn't stay as long as I would have done I just couldn't stand to watch him he seemed so tormented,it really made me feel so ill , he is never still walking up and down all the time ,getting very agitated and annoyed swearing,Hi which my husband would never have been like that , he was a very kind and lovely man before this horrible disease it's taken him away from me there nothing I can do , I have found it very hard to accept what has happened, and now as you say I find myself in this mine field,but hopefully it will get sorted soon fingers crossed, and hopefully when he gets to the nursing home they will get his medication sorted and thing will settle down for him and me as it's been terrible seeing him sad and agitated most of the time when I go to see him . Sorry Pauline for this long post but I really need to talk to someone who knows exactly what I'm going through, I'm so pleased I went to the memory Cafe yesterday and I wasn't going to go didn't feel very sociable but I went and I meet someone who can help me hopefully I keep saying hopefully but I've been let down so many times ,I was so relieved I feel I just might be getting somewhere.I Thank you so much for replying . reading your post for me it is helping me to be stronger and I've got to carry on for my husband.Thank you for your kind words .Martarita xx