Hi Lisa, I'm quite new too, since my mum was recently diagnosed. It is devastating, and no less so for you as a health professional involved with many dementia cases. The emotions are complex - shock, grief, worry, a sense of loss - all at a time when you are having to process a lot of information and make major decisions about your mum's care. I've started to realise I'm not alone in feeling like this, and am finding support in this forum, keeping an open dialogue with mum's GP and care team, and thinking about going along to a local dementia support group to feel less isolated. It's good that you've reached out to this forum, and I hope you will find the understanding and kindness of others helpful to you.