Hi Angie, it's a limbo period for you till the 20th.
How are you? Silly question, I know.
Sending my thoughts x
Angie, it sounds horrendously difficult for you. I'm so sorry.
Your boss is obviously in your corner, recognizing the acute pressure you've been under.
I know your dad's funeral is about a week away yet and that must be weighing heavily on you, the waiting as much as the dreading.
You do need time to yourself to process all this and grieve, let alone to give yourself some self-care (that's so easy said, though).
For now, just sending you a hug. Do you have support in some way from others? Please continue to post if it helps you.
X
Hi Angie. I care for Mum at home. 24/7 with some night relief from my son so that I can sleep and support during the day. Mother is sucking the life out of us. Cannot wash her as she starts to cry. She does not smell thanks to masses of baby wipes. She cannot dress herself so I do that and TBH I don't care what I put on her as long as it's clean and she is warm. She wears trousers and has a lovely habit of wiping her hands on her trousers. I encourage her to wash her hands at least but generally without success. Yesterday she used a pillow case to clean an old mascara wand and then threw another pillow case out of the front door. She goes nowhere alone as she is no longer fully mobile following fall in October. We live in 4-storey house and her access is restricted to 1 and 2 floors as stair lift too expensive to install throughout the house. So every time she wants to go upstairs/downstairs someone usually me has to go with het as she has no idea how to operate the lift and makes the sign of the cross each time she sits on it. She has declined so much since her fall and op and stay in hospital that I have decided the time has come for CH. She does not know who we are or where she is and always wants to pack and go home. And she wants her mother all the time. I feel I can do no more for her at home. There will be more hands on deck at the CH. The only blessing is that 99% of the time she is not aware of her decline. I am so exhausted sad angry resentful desperate to live my life etc and my son needs his life back too.
Angie I didn't comment much on your posts but I read them all. Despite the awful struggles you went through with your dad Brian, he sounded like a really interesting man. An independent, strong-minded character.
While funerals are sad they can also be a celebration of life and I really hope that comes to the front for you. Because you know what? I think you and your dad Brian are quite possibly very similar. I'd be proud of that.
You did well by your dad no matter what and I take my hat off to you and your dad too. Warmest wishes x