I am in a horrible position and I think by the title of this thread you can guess. Mum's dog is ill and I have made the decision that tomorrow she will be put to sleep. It is breaking my heart to do this, its a little piece of mum that I am loosing and I am a little worried about how she will react when all over . Tears coming now.
The dog spent 48 hours in the vets at the beginning of this week, very ill over the weekend, the problem is that she has this huge, hard lump on her neck that is probably pressing on wind pipe and there was a plan to de-bulk this as well as remove final few teeth and one other much softer lump on her tummy, operation was planned for Tuesday but the weekend just took over and poor puppy was not well and these lumps suddenly got so big. Bloods found an infection which was probably a big contribution to the sudden size of lumps so antibiotics pumped into her. Vet called me on Tuesday evening to say that the x ray had shown other things and that they had made the decision they could not carry on with the operation and if it was not for mum and her dementia, knowing how she feels about the dog and it was just me then the best thing to do was to end all this but they were willing to send her home. She has been home with a huge bag of medication, steroids being one and although the medication is helping, I am aware of how quickly she could deteriorate. She is sleeping on the sofa, breathing well and has eaten with medication hidden in food.
I am so concerned about what this all means for mum, although while the dog was in the vets, mum was sort of ok, but did ask me a few times "where is my baby" ? and checked out a few boxes in case she was hiding in one. She will be affected by this, especially when sundowning, because that is the time when she gets anxious about the dog and just wants to be near her, touching and covering her up with something. and I will have to deal with it by keeping up the love lies, but I feel bad too and will miss her. in the past four years I have lost 3 pets and this will be the fourth.
So there we are, a longer post than I planned and truthfully I was not going to post about this at all, until she had gone, but just feeling so sad today, had to do something.
The dog spent 48 hours in the vets at the beginning of this week, very ill over the weekend, the problem is that she has this huge, hard lump on her neck that is probably pressing on wind pipe and there was a plan to de-bulk this as well as remove final few teeth and one other much softer lump on her tummy, operation was planned for Tuesday but the weekend just took over and poor puppy was not well and these lumps suddenly got so big. Bloods found an infection which was probably a big contribution to the sudden size of lumps so antibiotics pumped into her. Vet called me on Tuesday evening to say that the x ray had shown other things and that they had made the decision they could not carry on with the operation and if it was not for mum and her dementia, knowing how she feels about the dog and it was just me then the best thing to do was to end all this but they were willing to send her home. She has been home with a huge bag of medication, steroids being one and although the medication is helping, I am aware of how quickly she could deteriorate. She is sleeping on the sofa, breathing well and has eaten with medication hidden in food.
I am so concerned about what this all means for mum, although while the dog was in the vets, mum was sort of ok, but did ask me a few times "where is my baby" ? and checked out a few boxes in case she was hiding in one. She will be affected by this, especially when sundowning, because that is the time when she gets anxious about the dog and just wants to be near her, touching and covering her up with something. and I will have to deal with it by keeping up the love lies, but I feel bad too and will miss her. in the past four years I have lost 3 pets and this will be the fourth.
So there we are, a longer post than I planned and truthfully I was not going to post about this at all, until she had gone, but just feeling so sad today, had to do something.