I'm not the best subscriber, so please forgive me. The past week has been hell. Mum has been extremely paranoid and abusive, and thinks I'm doing things to her that I'm just not. She's hit me and smashed things up I what can only be described as a violent temper. She calls me terrible things, and this morning at 3am came into my room and became abusive. I went out for a walk for hours, and when I came back it was still going on. I couldn't dope and I've rung the emergency out of hours social services. I'm waiting to hear back from them. I feel dreadful. I can't cope with their any more. I can't cope with her violence, and in particular I can't cope with the feeling that it will happen over the slightest thing, and at any time. I'm walking on egg shells and I cannot take it any more, it is making me ill, and my nerves are shattered. I don't have a life, and she gets angry with me if I do anything for myself. I feel terrible, I try so hard to make her life worth living. However, I can't do this any more. I think it's time to call it a day, I need a break. I've not slept since Tuesday. I can't carry on alone, and I feel bad about it.