Thank you all so much for your very kind thoughts and wishes. Now that the hurry and rush of the funeral and the descending relations has abated, I do at last have time to just think about what has happened. And what I want to say might give some comfort to the loved ones of other sufferers. Because, amazingly, now that Mike is freed from his suffering and confusion, I can once more see the man I fell in love with. It is strange, but over the last seven years I had lost that loving, kind man, as he became replaced with a shambling, bad-tempered stranger. But within days of his death, once more I could see my Mike, the man I loved, so clearly in my mind's eye and it really did reinforce my feelings of relief that his sufferings are over. I will miss him forever and ever, but I have spent the past seven years mourning his loss and I don't think a single day has gone by without tears. But oh, now he is gone, I will never again have to see that poor face contorted in anger and pain. I can look back to those happy years, those smiling years, before the awfulness took hold and robbed him of his personality, of his skills, of all the wonderful things that made him special. I would like to share this song with you: it was the one I chose to have played at his funeral. It sums up how I feel:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsCdlX-5UjE
Kindest regards,
Chris
