Omg, my lovely stepdad, who looks much younger than his 77 years, is still in his nursing home. Staff are lovely and I mean lovely. He is in an EMI home and the abuse that these lovely staff receive every single minute of their working hour is unbelievable. I am lucky these are all staff who have worked there for a large number of years and they care for their patients. My stepdad lived in an immaculate house before his illness and I feel so guilty. Why, the careers are fantastic, they feed, clothe, and really care for their patients. He is very hard work and the staff deserve a medal, but it still destroys me every time I go to visit. My mum died early from cancer and I promised her I would look after my stepdad. He has been a big part of my family, Xmas, Easter spent at my home, we have been very close. I visit twice a week, an hours drive away, but my god I feel guilty. What a terrible illness this is. Was there today, as I am every Saturday, and I just feel awful. I work full time, I have to ask myself could I do more?? How does anybody else overcome the guilt? he is a well loved grandad.