Hello Ang57, can i just add to this list of people explaining that you most certainly are not selfish - quite the opposite. But, somewhere, sometime you've lost yourself - and I suspect you find caring a drudge now and get little pleasure from the time you spend with Mum.
You need help. And that's not a sign that you are failing in any way!!
Speak to your local Carers' Org. Get them to do a carer's assessment. Not only can they offer support (the opportunity to meet other carers over a cup of coffee or on a trip out (sometimes with the people you're all caring for), but most can also offer real, practical help (eg funds to get a new washing machine or whatever, carers to come in and give you a break for a night, a massage for you, maybe get your nails done. Small things sometimes, but they can be just what you need to lift your spirits.
And, if you can get help with your caring (the dreaded social services perhaps, or if money isn't an issue just google local caring organisations) - maybe an hour a day (to have that bubble bath suggested) or 2 hours once a week (to join a gym, go for a walk, meet up with old friends, whatever!) - then not only will you start to enjoy the time with Mum again, but you will also be sowing the seeds for the rest of your life.
Because, just like any job, there will come a day when you "retire" (or rather be retired) from the job of caring - and you need to start planning your retirement now, I think. You deserve so much more - take a leap and see what's out there. Good luck and keep posting - we're part of your support team, now xx
You need help. And that's not a sign that you are failing in any way!!
Speak to your local Carers' Org. Get them to do a carer's assessment. Not only can they offer support (the opportunity to meet other carers over a cup of coffee or on a trip out (sometimes with the people you're all caring for), but most can also offer real, practical help (eg funds to get a new washing machine or whatever, carers to come in and give you a break for a night, a massage for you, maybe get your nails done. Small things sometimes, but they can be just what you need to lift your spirits.
And, if you can get help with your caring (the dreaded social services perhaps, or if money isn't an issue just google local caring organisations) - maybe an hour a day (to have that bubble bath suggested) or 2 hours once a week (to join a gym, go for a walk, meet up with old friends, whatever!) - then not only will you start to enjoy the time with Mum again, but you will also be sowing the seeds for the rest of your life.
Because, just like any job, there will come a day when you "retire" (or rather be retired) from the job of caring - and you need to start planning your retirement now, I think. You deserve so much more - take a leap and see what's out there. Good luck and keep posting - we're part of your support team, now xx