I need to thank you for all your love and support. I know it is very one sided , especially at the moment. I hope it will change and I will feel able to give more than I take here on TP. I struggle to find space to read and respond on TP in the way I would like to. I struggle to make phone calls to anyone, as my husband gets jealous and aggressive, so it isn’t worth the anger.
It’s a bit rough at the moment. My husband has an infection, well masked, but we now have antibiotics and hopefully this will reduce his aggression, anger, and spitefulness. I’m feeling just so lonely and uncared for. I miss my lovely friend... her funeral is on Monday and I don’t think I can attend as I can’t leave my husband for more than 2 hours, and although it is hard for some to understand, I don’t have anyone to sit with him. If I could find someone, my husband would be devastated when they have to deal with his incontinence. I can’t put him through that.
It looks like I have no choice but to go into hospital for a surgical procedure. I had the forms from the hospital. One of the questions asked if I had a dependent. I agonised over the response, but ended up putting yes, my husband has dementia. Then they asked who would be taking care of me when I go home. I just couldn’t answer that one and thought I’ll come back to it. I’m very good at burying my head in the sand! But I had to come back to it. I had to admit that, who will take care of me? Who will take care of my husband while I’m in hospital.
Life is such a mess... will it ever get any easier?
I know I’m talking to people on here who have the same problems, but I just feel it is all so tough. I know I should take each day as it comes. But some things I have to plan and prepare for.
I miss being happy... I miss laughing... I miss my husbands smile... I miss him looking at me as if he loves me...where has he gone? Where have we both gone, because although we are together 24 hours a day, we are not a couple anymore. xx
It’s a bit rough at the moment. My husband has an infection, well masked, but we now have antibiotics and hopefully this will reduce his aggression, anger, and spitefulness. I’m feeling just so lonely and uncared for. I miss my lovely friend... her funeral is on Monday and I don’t think I can attend as I can’t leave my husband for more than 2 hours, and although it is hard for some to understand, I don’t have anyone to sit with him. If I could find someone, my husband would be devastated when they have to deal with his incontinence. I can’t put him through that.
It looks like I have no choice but to go into hospital for a surgical procedure. I had the forms from the hospital. One of the questions asked if I had a dependent. I agonised over the response, but ended up putting yes, my husband has dementia. Then they asked who would be taking care of me when I go home. I just couldn’t answer that one and thought I’ll come back to it. I’m very good at burying my head in the sand! But I had to come back to it. I had to admit that, who will take care of me? Who will take care of my husband while I’m in hospital.
Life is such a mess... will it ever get any easier?
I know I’m talking to people on here who have the same problems, but I just feel it is all so tough. I know I should take each day as it comes. But some things I have to plan and prepare for.
I miss being happy... I miss laughing... I miss my husbands smile... I miss him looking at me as if he loves me...where has he gone? Where have we both gone, because although we are together 24 hours a day, we are not a couple anymore. xx