Dear
@existingaspect
after six years of caring for my mum with developing Dementia she died in early 2021. In her last year we were virtually house prisoners in social isolation and the repetitive questions was very tough to deal with. Let me stress I am not a saint. No one gives you a manual on how to deal with Dementia in a loved one. You only have to witness how some medical professionals “respond“ to the demands of Dementia, to realise there are no saints just loving people trying their best to stumble through the mists of Dementia, holding the hands of their loved one. None of the following suggestions are guaranteed to work, but in combination they might help you maintain a workable environment at least for some time period.
1) If you start to get stressed, your voice is beginning to go up, tension in your emotions, etc, these are not negatives in a caring role but warning signs. Take a break, leave the room, get some moments to refocus your mind. Step from the lounge into the kitchen to create a physical gap. Learn to create even more importantly a brief mental space for yourself to recharge. Think of your favourite flower, meal, place to visit, etc and go there in your mind. Not easy at first but with practice it gets better. As you distract your thoughts your mood will change. The human mind needs guiding, coaxing and can rarely fully engage on two thought paths at a time.
2) Use of memory clinics has been made by another person on this thread. Think about your mum when she was pre Dementia and much younger. You need to engage her longer term memory which is one of the last parts to be damaged. Did she enjoy card games? Would she settle and watch old films and TV programmes from years ago on Freeview? Love joy, As Time Goes By, etc, got me and mum through the lockdowns. I knew the scripts by half but my mum was content watching them. Mum could still read her Peoples Friend each week, I just had to turn the page when I could to stop getting the same article repeatedly read to me.
3) Like all carers you are in the process of crossing a bridge. Most likely at the hardest mid point. You mention your pre Dementia mum being a strong and capable person. Now for one the hardest parts of caring. Please retain your memories of that mum in your mind, but accept that lady is now gone. Your new mum may seem needy, anxious, ungrateful, etc, but that is the reality of the situation. Please accept that fact as soon as you can, finish the journey over the bridge. It is deeply unpleasant standing on the other bank, but doing so mentally will help you support your mum as she now is. That is a really tough emotional ask of any carer but it is the nature of the illness.
4) Please accept that you need a space to rant, let go of distressing emotions as they buildup,etc, in a safe way. Please come onto this forum and rant. No one will judge you. All the people here belong to the carers club. They did not ask to join, they would rather their loved one was well. That said they are very supportive, they wear the tee shirt, they get it. If ranting here is to personal go into the shed and kick seven bells out of an old puff. Get the emotional dross out. Anger at what has happened to your loved one, guilt you are somehow failing your mum, feelings of isolation, others you meet prattling on how they would cope having never dealt with Dementia, etc.
5) Lastly cut yourself some slack. You love your mum. You have not run for the hills. You have engaged with her illness as best you can, with no guidance manual. Always remember you are part of the solution not the problem. Be gentle with yourself. You will make mistakes but so do all carers in the absence of a effective training manual. But you know what this site is a gold mine of useful information and support. Please just reach out and ask questions, help, etc.
All carers facing Dementia are doomed to fail. The illness is remorseless, it takes no prisoners, it will suck the life force out of your loved one and anyone dealing with the situation as a carer. Please be clear on that point. On that basis think about how far down the caring role you can go? I was lucky. No partner or kids to think about, reasonable finances when I had to give up work, a deep love for my mum, physically fit and relatively young. Dementia care still almost broke me. Where are your lines in the sand? You will have to periodically reevaluate that point but most carers need external support, quite likely a care home ultimately for their loved one. Not a personal failing just fact In most cases.
I have tried to help. If at first my words cause upset please accept my apology but no offence or hurt was intended. We are all different, one of the miracles of life. I wish you well on your caring journey.