mum passed away 9 weeks ago today and i can only express my grief on here with others who understand- my husband is now finding it hard to look at me if he thinks i am getting upset and walks away-we went out last night just for a quiet drink, really enjoyed it - we did talk about mum and dad , dad passed away in may, my husband misses them too ,last night we could smile talk about what we,d all done together, just talked happy talk, but today i am so upset-i dont know if christmas is making it worse but i desperately want my parents there is no one that knows me or cares for me like them, i am still waiting for my mums ashes from her funeral and even though i know these are just mums remains i want them here with me- i thought i was doing ok but today i know im not - i am sure you are all going through similar and i just wanted to write my feelings downx