I can't do this............

fearful fiona

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Apr 19, 2007
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Dear Hazel,

I had a few tears too, he looks such a lovely gentle kind man, I want to give him a big cuddle. It looks such a lovely place, I'm sure you will look forward to visiting him there in such a lovely environment.

Hope you are able to have a bit of much earned rest now knowing that while you are not there he is in such caring hands.

Much love,
 

Skye

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Aug 29, 2006
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SW Scotland
Thank you so much. I keep looking back at those photos, they comfort me when I'm not with him.

Is that silly?

Love,
 

ROSEANN

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Oct 1, 2006
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staffordshire
Dear Hazel
It is not silly I thank the man who gave us photo`s at least they give us comfort.
The home looks lovely and I hope when the time comes we are as lucky as you in finding such a good place,I am also pleased for you that your step-sons are surrporting you.
My love to you both
Roseann
 

Canadian Joanne

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Apr 8, 2005
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Dear Hazel,
They are lovely photos & the home looks beautiful. Please take care of yourself now. I know how difficult it is putting a loved one in care. I don't want you getting depressed or anything like that.
Love
Joanne
 

Skye

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Aug 29, 2006
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SW Scotland
Canadian Joanne said:
I know how difficult it is putting a loved one in care. I don't want you getting depressed or anything like that.

Thanks, Joanne & Roseann. I'm not depressed, Joanne, I was far more depressed when John was at home and I knew I wasn't coping.

Now? I just feel guilty. The truth is, with proper care and constant company, John is getting better every day. I should be glad about that, but it gives me such doubts. Did I jump too soon?

This disease truly is hell, isn't it? I don't think there's ever a time when you feel you're doing a good job. Anxiety, frustration, doubt and guilt are par for the course.

To end on a positive: I planted my spring bulb pots this morning!

Love,