Hi Canary. That is really helpful thank you. I'm sure as time goes by and I can take her out it will get just like you say. I can't wait for that day but it really helps to hear from someone who has trodden that path before me. Bless you x
Just a little update! Meeting the social worker at the care home tomorrow. Seems everyone thinks this is the best thing for Mum and the family! I'm still not sure but just want the best for her. I know I can't do it on my own so feel I have no choice. I'm great when I go and visit Mum. I'm very positive and bright and what a lovely place. When I come out my heart breaks. I am crying all the time and am so struggling to cope. Please tell me this will ease as time goes on. I feel like I have had my heart ripped out of me. Don't know how to feel better.
Thank you. Jane x
Okay maybe I need a bit more help guys! Social worker visited and Mum said she likes it there so social worker happy and agrees for Mum to stay there. Had a meltdown after I left as leaving her is so hard. Positive side - she is well looked after and the staff are brilliant. Negative - I just want to pick her up and look after her myself! Today I went in and she was very confused. Had 3rd bad night sleep in a row. They wonder if she has a uti so trying to test her. That's positive. At least they are on the ball. Was upset as she wanted to ring me or my sister this morning and they wouldn't let her. Guess they are trying to get a balance here. I feel so bad and hurt so much. Daisydi -, me and you both! Not sure how to cope with this really.
Thanks all. Jane x