I have just registered on this site and wanted to say hello
. I've been struggling a bit this week and keep wiping away tears. Nothing has changed significantly in the last few days, and there's been no major upsets or incidents this week.. it's just that I've realised I would really like to connect with people who understand what it's like to care for a loved one with dementia. I sometimes feel like no-one understands and I feel so isolated. I have my own flat (which I am now selling, and that breaks my heart) but I moved in with mum about 5 years ago. She was diagnosed about 4 years ago with Alzheimer's and vascular dementia. It feels like the trigger for the dementia was our dad dying, because everything changed after that. I have a full time job, which I do from home, and sometimes I find the emotional challenges and broken sleep so hard to cope with. I have overwhelming feelings of guilt about everything, that I'm failing in everything I do. I miss my old life, but I love our mum so much; my sister, me and mum were always the best of friends. I "miss" mum, I mean who she was and the relationship we had, and I miss seeing my sister and spending time just with her
. On the bright side, mum and I have a lovely sausage dog which has been our saviour.. she makes us laugh every day
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