I last saw dad 2 days before everything locked down his dementia had progressed so when it was suggested using an I pad to communicate with him it wasn’t really feasible when coronavirus hit I rang his care home 3 /4 times a week to check on him . If he was awake I would get a chat to him if he was asleep ( he done that a lot ) then I would leave him to sleep and call back later, last Saturday I got to chat to him and I can say it was bizarre never having been an emotional man and the dementia had also left him quite aggressive I was amazed that he kept saying he loved me and I was a wonderful daughter this carried on for a while until he gave the phone to the carer at that point I asked if he was okay as this was most unlike him . Sunday the home rings to inform they have 2 positive cases of covid and dad is showing signs of it . He’s taken to hospital as by now he is desaturating hospital then rings things aren’t looking good and they think he will pass , he does manage to talk to me on the phone again this time it’s they are killing me and this isn’t a joke he’s back to shouting at me . Covid test comes back positive things are getting worse not allowed in to see him and he passes away Wednesday morning. I’m feeling so bad and guilty that he was in the care home and they got covid just wondering if this has happened to anyone else and also because I wasn’t allowed into the hospital to visit him I can’t shake the feeling that he is still in the hospital and I’m arranging someone else’s funeral also funeral director won’t let me into see him as he’s a definite covid case it’s a closed casket ??