So my mum who has Alzheimers at 58 has just been made permanent at a wonderful care home. Mum now struggles to get her words out and gets emotional when I leave. She says she wants to go home (she still has some capacity so I believe it is her previous home rather than one from her child hood). She wants to be 'normal' and live at home (preferably with me). I just feel so incredibly guilty. I take her out every week and see her 3 times per week. It's is generally down to me visiting her and feel like im compensating as i cant relh on others to go. She got upset when my son (2 years old) gave her a kiss and I just feel guilty. She said she was crying on Saturday as there is nothing to do and she's sat in her room. So when I hear this I compensate I drove to get her to come and watch my son when I take him swimming. This already is a huge task but its the guilt of her just being stuck there and I can see her happy when she is with us. Just needed to vent. I just feel so bad.