I have completed the eulogy. I have altered it, fine tuned it, even written a page with huge cue words, and read it a zillion times. I am absolutely fine reading it till I get to the last paragraph and then I start crying and I cannot fight my way through the final words, without my voice breaking.
Is this OK do you think? I want to say it because I think it finishes it off, but every single time I cry. But I can get through to the last word, even though I'm crying. Should I think of something else to say? Basically, I'm saying about the front door bell ringing, me knowing John had died, and then the phone call from the Home. Then I say ........
Every Christmas, John and I loved to watch It's A Wonderful Life, sometimes we'd record it and watch it several times. And at the end, we'd turn to each other and, crying, say "Wasn't that good"! And of course everybody knows the most famous line that every time a bell rings, it means an angel's got its wings.
John, you were a wonderful and loyal friend, husband, Dad and Grandpa, and for nearly 50 years, my angel, you gave me a Wonderful Life. Thank you for loving me, darling, God Bless You, and may your dear sweet soul Rest in Peace.
I can't actually type it without crying.
Oh Scarlett, can't see to type through the tears! You are one special Lady, made more special by your wonderful marriage. What lovely things to say - you'll find the strength, have no fear because John will be right by your side. X Shelagh