I have booked a late holiday with my sister for a week to Turkey. My sister suggested the holiday as we are both off work for a week and she thinks a rest and a change of scenery will do us both good ( she stayed with me the whole time Steve was in hospital for 4 days before he passed away and I know she was also very upset but stayed strong for me). I am feeling very apprehensive as this will be my first holiday without my lovely husband Stephen who I lost in October 07. I cant face getting the cases out with bikini's and beach towels in as I keep remembering out last holiday in May last year when he was okay. He had a very rapid form of dementia that started last summer and as he was only 61 and I was 54 we still had a very active social life until his illness ( the neurologists still dont know what it was, said it could have been a rare form of parkinsons or a rare form of motor neurone disease but it affected his speech and balance and also made him aggressive which he had never been in all the time I have known him over 25 years.) His deterioration was rapid.
Sorry this has been such a long posting but I am so worried and sad to be going on holiday without him that I dont know if I have made the right decision to go as I am still grieving for him terribly but dont want to let my sister down. I thought this would be a good way to get my feelings out and wonder if anyone else has had the same feelings as me.
Love Janet
Sorry this has been such a long posting but I am so worried and sad to be going on holiday without him that I dont know if I have made the right decision to go as I am still grieving for him terribly but dont want to let my sister down. I thought this would be a good way to get my feelings out and wonder if anyone else has had the same feelings as me.
Love Janet