Bless you Peter, it is hard enough looking after yourself at this time and it is you that needs your whole concentration. You are totally and utterly consumed by grief and frightened of what the future holds for you. A future you imagined as a couple going forward together has been smashed to pieces and now you have to piece your life back together - alone. Firstly heal yourself, be kind to you and only you. Bridget is being looked after and very well looked after, you have absolutely no worries in that respect. However, all the organisations, people, pets, kind words etc,. will not heal you unless and until you are ready to be healed and engage with the rest of your life, the remainder of which be it short or long. No one can change the past, we can only live in the present. Bridget is unable to comprehend past, present or future and try as you may to change her you cannot, and you have to accept that no one on earth can return her to how she was. The only person who can change their life is you - no one else, that means acceptance of the here and now, not the could have been, should have been, if only. The past is gone and there is only your future and you should use it wisely. You cannot change the past, but you can change your present and your future. You will have to learn to let go, ease off, search for a life of your making, and make your life the best it can be. My prayers and thoughts are for you, bless you and I pray for peace of your mind and heart xx