I’m constantly reminded that I should be kind to myself. But the only thing that I really get satisfaction from is being kind to my wife when I get the chance to help her at the home. That’s what love is for me, putting aside my own wants for her. At the moment any activity I do away from her makes me feel that I’m being selfish and then I feel real guilt. I know I have make a life for myself but it’s so very hard when as a couple we did everything together. God, how long does take to sort all this mess out?