I’ ve had enough, my rresilience has gone.
We were suppose to be Skyping our son this lunchtime but everything changed at about 12 noon. My husband became increasing aggressive culminating in accusing me of wanting to murder him! He had even written it down what I was planning and I’d asked our 2 sons to help me!He was accusing me of wanting to visit our son inthe States without him. Quite the opposite, I wouldn’t go and leave him to fend for himself! No amount of denying from me worked and his aggression increased so I walked out. I have a key to my sister in law’s house, went there and phoned the son we were going to Skype to put him off. He realised Iwas extremely upset, contacted his brother who lives a couple of hours drive away .He phoned me and said he was coming to collect me and take me to his home. I tried to dissuade him but he came and the upshot is I came back with him. Feeling extremely upset,tearful , guilty, asked son to turn back but he refused saying it’s impossible for me to continue my life this way etc., I was so worried about leaving my husband ( never, ever done anything like that in 53 years of marriage ) that I contacted the emergency mental health team, they said they couldn’t do anything and suggestion I phone social services tomorrow ( Sunday ) who might be able to make assessments with a view to respite care ( husband will not entertain that!) and bringing forward his change of meds. Plus letting his g.p know. I phoned my niece and asked her to go and see if husband was o.k as he wasn’t picking up the phone when I tried to phone and she reported back that he was o.k but confused. She wrote down where I was and I would be returning early tomorrow In the hope that he understood.
I am mentally exhausted at my lowest ebb, I hate being away from him but it’s increasingly hard to be with him, my mental health is suffering, I know that, so many emotions, I don’t know what to do for the best except let it all out here.
We were suppose to be Skyping our son this lunchtime but everything changed at about 12 noon. My husband became increasing aggressive culminating in accusing me of wanting to murder him! He had even written it down what I was planning and I’d asked our 2 sons to help me!He was accusing me of wanting to visit our son inthe States without him. Quite the opposite, I wouldn’t go and leave him to fend for himself! No amount of denying from me worked and his aggression increased so I walked out. I have a key to my sister in law’s house, went there and phoned the son we were going to Skype to put him off. He realised Iwas extremely upset, contacted his brother who lives a couple of hours drive away .He phoned me and said he was coming to collect me and take me to his home. I tried to dissuade him but he came and the upshot is I came back with him. Feeling extremely upset,tearful , guilty, asked son to turn back but he refused saying it’s impossible for me to continue my life this way etc., I was so worried about leaving my husband ( never, ever done anything like that in 53 years of marriage ) that I contacted the emergency mental health team, they said they couldn’t do anything and suggestion I phone social services tomorrow ( Sunday ) who might be able to make assessments with a view to respite care ( husband will not entertain that!) and bringing forward his change of meds. Plus letting his g.p know. I phoned my niece and asked her to go and see if husband was o.k as he wasn’t picking up the phone when I tried to phone and she reported back that he was o.k but confused. She wrote down where I was and I would be returning early tomorrow In the hope that he understood.
I am mentally exhausted at my lowest ebb, I hate being away from him but it’s increasingly hard to be with him, my mental health is suffering, I know that, so many emotions, I don’t know what to do for the best except let it all out here.