Bebee,
It is easy to have faith when times are good and you are happy and all your loved ones are healthy. We are just ordinary, simple, destructable beings and things go wrong. As awful as AD is,,, there is always worse. All my Mom's life "persevere" was her all time saying when faced with difficulties. Then I found this verse which says it all.
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him"
We were told in a hospice meeting yesterday that Mom is down to 90lbs and very very frail. She won't live many more months if not weeks. Still, she pats the hand of the AD lady sitting next to her, she brings sweetness and a smile to every worker in the home, she can sing and her sweet voice is heard by all in astonishment, she warms the hearts of everyone that she is contact with by holding her husbands hand as they walk. With every ache, pain, and confusion, she teaches her caretakers, making them better at what they do. And she teaches me too, not only how to be a care taker but how to let go.
It is through difficult times that we are tested and we build a soul. It is easy to turn away from God and to blame him. It is harder to hang tough with him and have faith that through him all will be ok. I struggle with it daily, but I know the reward will be that I will be with my Mom again someday and hopefully she will say, "well done".
Take care and God Bless,
Debbie