Thanks
@Jaded'n'faded , I thought that was agreat song and video interesting how you get the feel she is almost drowning. I'm working long days all week apart from Weds and that will be fun sorting mum out after two days of not being here.
I get so fed up with colleagues and friends not getting how this really is, its not some quirky past time where mum has a few moments, its hardwork, letting her comments and actions fly over my head while at the same time driving in all seats none stop. As sure as I am tolerant and loving outwardly, internally my patience runs dry with moments of complete despair and then on top of that are people who mean well but have absolutely no idea what goes on behind the scenes. The constant babble, the constant reorganising, the constant and the constant bad judgements and comments by friends all makes me feel worthless.
I get sick of people who think things are so simple and straight forward, who have a family to support them unlike me with the invisible cold hearted brother I have and I get sick of having to explain it all over and over and over again, and I get sick of people who are lucky enough not to have to live this nightmare telling me how to live my ****ing life