Yes, this is it I realise that, but I do wonder at the 'what iffs'. Quite right Jugglingmum -I shouldn't dwell on it for too long.I suspect many of us wonder that. But it doesn't make things any easier and I think best not to dwell on it as it can't be changed and we've been dealt what we've been dealt.
Edited to add: Well this is my experience anyway.
Re friends, I suspect that if you indicate you are available you will be welcome but it will take time as they have plans they've had to make without you
Yes friends have moved on and made plans, I understand. We shall see how things pan out. Normally there's a team party this time of year, but E this year can't host it (she has a huge property). I am looking forward to Friday, I just hope it doesn't rain