I'm glad you're staying upbeat in the face of the silent treatment - keep it up and enjoy your window shopping!
Glad to hear that Nobody puts Ang in a corner
I am dying inside.........
Thats it.......... I just had to say it or it would be another overdose for me tonight........... last one should have killed a horse, but I brought too much back by being violently sick........
I just need a break, but Mum seems to think I should only leave the house when she is settled for the night......... even though I've told her the district nurse would give her the insulin injections......... all I get is that she will not wait in all day............ which she would not have to do because it's linked with her meals..........
But she expects me to never step out of the door, and because she get so nasty I do as I'm told ...... at 54....... I'm an only child and have no partner or support........ and because she was such a witch when I was small and growing up......... the woman still scares the wits out of me................
I've made the biggest mistake of my life giving up my own home to live with and look after her............ because she only thinks of herself and that is not the alzheimers...... that is how she has always been........ my grandma brought me up....... Mum and Dad were never there......... and because they found once I was born I was in the way of their love for each other......... I was forced to leave home at 16............
My Dad is in a home with dementia also............. I can't cope........ I want to run away and hide forever.............. disappear and take on a new identity where no one knows me..............
I'm crying............ I'm dying.......... and I'm sick of waking every day to shaking like a leaf and a tummy that churns............ and of spending 24/7 in this prison, while she gets out and about with a full social life...........
She refused to look after her own Mum, Grandma ended up with a distant relative living miles away, and she visited only twice a year, they were too busy living life to the full together, Mum's and Dad's bubble only held 2 people...........
I think she is so selfish.......... and it's not the dementia........ but God knows why..... I do care still........... but she is rapidly pushing me to the edge..............
I would never physically hurt her as my parents did to me when growing up........ but I have for the first time tonight had a go at her verbally because she would not listen or give a little...........
I'm at my wits end.......... how can I make this work out for Mum without going insane myself?????????
PS, I failed to say that Mum refuses any help that has to be paid for, she says she cannot afford it, but I deal with all of her finances and she can, she is just being stubborn as always...................