Tre, these are wise words from pony-mad and bemused.
It is only natural that you should feel dazed still, and you will need time to adjust to your loss. Christmas comes, and Christmas goes, what is important is that you look to yourself now. What you have been through, are still going through is what matters, so please try not to take on any extra pressure, regardless of the season.
Only do what you feel you want to tre.
You are in my thoughts,
xx