Hello, my name is Kate. Mum was diagnosed with Alzheimers (moderate) recently. She was also diagnosed with paranoia, visual and aural hallucinations.
She has had slightly 'odd' (or eccentric!) behaviour for many years, but my fathers death and the isolation of the Covid lock-downs (which were necessary) exacerbated mums cognitive decline. It just dropped off a cliff. She went from being the lovely friendly person we know, to keeping the curtains closed 24/7, sitting with a hammer (for defence purposes) to calling the police on friends and neighbours of many decades.
Ultimately we ended up selling her home and moving her over 300miles to be near me. She welcomed (as did I) this as she was terribly frightened and confused. Once Mum was settled the hallucinations disappeared but they flare up if she is frightened. She is in a lovely flat, where there is a warden. She's in the centre of a market town where she doesn't have to cross a road to access the 'hustle and bustle'. The real wonder is that there is an Age UK around the corner, with dementia-friendly activities that she can join in. Finally after a few years she is getting a routine going and starting to have more time feeling happy, than sad.
I'm here for her, but also for me. A lot of the time I find her so frustrating and full of nonsense. I love her, but gosh, it's desperately difficult to be around her sometimes. I feel always on the cusp of snapping or losing my temper. Why won't she wash? Why won't she brush her teeth? Why won't she spend money on herself? Why wear dirty clothes? I now do the laundry for her too. She can do all of the above, but will not.
I work full time and have a partner who has been ill for three years so mine is the only income (I'm self-employed). I have to take time off to take Mum to her multitude of appointments. I have power of attorney, but always involve Mum. I have to be honest, it's a massive burden. I love her, and will do it, but my god I don't know how to manage her, my partner and work. And do it all with good grace! Because I'm not currently. I'm like an angry bear that's been rudely woken up with tooth ache! Anyway, hello and that was cathartic, admitting and typing all of the above! Thanks.