My first post on this part of the forum ....My beloved OH died 6weeks ago.......yes I was with him...Yes it was ‘a good death’ yes we all celebrated a life well lived......yes I was strong...so why do I feel so awful full!!!
If anyone else tells me...your strong you’ll carry on! Or he would want you to..etc etc...I was even told Well you’re a tough old bird!!!!!
Is this grief...I feel I am on the outside looking in on life! Is this a safety measure..to enable me to cope!
I feel this dreaded Covid pandemic has robbed me of support...my boys are been great but again are grieving......but nobody else..nobody has been able to offer a hug, a shoulder.....or even a ‘sorry’ ...I don’t want to turn into a bitter self centred ‘widow’ hate that title!!!!! I feel I’m rambling so will stop.......
If anyone else tells me...your strong you’ll carry on! Or he would want you to..etc etc...I was even told Well you’re a tough old bird!!!!!
Is this grief...I feel I am on the outside looking in on life! Is this a safety measure..to enable me to cope!
I feel this dreaded Covid pandemic has robbed me of support...my boys are been great but again are grieving......but nobody else..nobody has been able to offer a hug, a shoulder.....or even a ‘sorry’ ...I don’t want to turn into a bitter self centred ‘widow’ hate that title!!!!! I feel I’m rambling so will stop.......