Here we go again!!!
Last year my mum was in a psychiatric functional assessment ward.Due to never being given a diagnosis despite strong indicators on the ct scan and high doses of medication for psychosis,anxiety and depression this caused unnecessary turmoil,anger fallouts within our family during christmas as we could not agree what was best for my mum.
It resulted in her coming home for christmas and upset all round.Eventually after failed home assessment and 1wks home leave my mum was finally discharged into a wonderful residential home still on the same medication and things settled down after a time with my mum settling into a routine which enabled her to "hide" a lot of her problems.Her family began the slow process of healing the hurt caused during this time and forging previous relationships with eachother and our own families.
2wks ago I noticed a deterioration with my mum and hoped this would pass but sadly no the return of the psychosis masked by reference to slight ailments began which has further deteriorated into a high anxiety state,withdrawal and the evident psychotic behaviour-which is so sad to see her trying to hide.
How dumb was I?I thought it would be a simle matter of contacting the hospital for a review but have found out that she was discharged and would have to be re-referred via GP.Hard to believe after a 5mth stay in hospital and still on all those meds!!!!
I know my mum can't help this but as I have a 7yr old son whostill believes in the magic of Christmas and the memory of last year is so painful I am dreading this year again and if I'm honest I am so angry!!!!!!With that comes guilt and upset.I miss my mum so much and the lady I now visit is a shell I no longer know.
I would like to hear from anyone with similiar circumstances of non-diagnosis and similar problems this can cause in family dynamics through treatment of symptoms only!!!
Sorry to rant but I suppose I was doing the ostrich effect because the situation although hard had been relatively settled and I was hoping for 1 christmas day where we could all pretend-just 1!!!!!x
Last year my mum was in a psychiatric functional assessment ward.Due to never being given a diagnosis despite strong indicators on the ct scan and high doses of medication for psychosis,anxiety and depression this caused unnecessary turmoil,anger fallouts within our family during christmas as we could not agree what was best for my mum.
It resulted in her coming home for christmas and upset all round.Eventually after failed home assessment and 1wks home leave my mum was finally discharged into a wonderful residential home still on the same medication and things settled down after a time with my mum settling into a routine which enabled her to "hide" a lot of her problems.Her family began the slow process of healing the hurt caused during this time and forging previous relationships with eachother and our own families.
2wks ago I noticed a deterioration with my mum and hoped this would pass but sadly no the return of the psychosis masked by reference to slight ailments began which has further deteriorated into a high anxiety state,withdrawal and the evident psychotic behaviour-which is so sad to see her trying to hide.
How dumb was I?I thought it would be a simle matter of contacting the hospital for a review but have found out that she was discharged and would have to be re-referred via GP.Hard to believe after a 5mth stay in hospital and still on all those meds!!!!
I know my mum can't help this but as I have a 7yr old son whostill believes in the magic of Christmas and the memory of last year is so painful I am dreading this year again and if I'm honest I am so angry!!!!!!With that comes guilt and upset.I miss my mum so much and the lady I now visit is a shell I no longer know.
I would like to hear from anyone with similiar circumstances of non-diagnosis and similar problems this can cause in family dynamics through treatment of symptoms only!!!
Sorry to rant but I suppose I was doing the ostrich effect because the situation although hard had been relatively settled and I was hoping for 1 christmas day where we could all pretend-just 1!!!!!x