Honestly, my head is just full of my mum being in a care home.
6 months now, she has started to settle quite well, we take her out on shopping trips & back to ours for dinner etc, the staff genuinely like my mum - she is a character and is at the stage when can still hold a sort of conversation & understands what people are saying to her
- she has a few favourite carers at the home & I get txts to say how well she is doing , sometimes with pics (the other day one of the carers sent me fab pic of mum brushing someones hair)
but every day I battle with ''shall I visit tonight'' / or I can't do that on sat as need to see mum / or everytime I go shopping - will mum need that / like that'
I have battled with myself for ages whether to give up work & have mum move in with me...however, I love my job & I know from family members & a good friend who did this, its not the same, its very hard and at the mo when I see mum, its really lovely getting hugs goodbye at the door and having a laugh with her & the staff (not always...she does have her off days!)
spent most of last weekend with mum, but have a very bad cold at the moment & I KNOW I shouldn't go to see her, I'm full of cold, tired..but the guilt monster is eating away at me.
I am like this every week & weekend -if I don't see mum twice / three times in the week and at least once over the weekend I feel like I have let her down.... I know she won't remember that I'm there one hour to the next.. its just me.
I do have a brother -however, he can detatch himself from mum in a way I just can't seem to do.
thanks for reading -feel almost better for just typing away.
sas
x
6 months now, she has started to settle quite well, we take her out on shopping trips & back to ours for dinner etc, the staff genuinely like my mum - she is a character and is at the stage when can still hold a sort of conversation & understands what people are saying to her
- she has a few favourite carers at the home & I get txts to say how well she is doing , sometimes with pics (the other day one of the carers sent me fab pic of mum brushing someones hair)
but every day I battle with ''shall I visit tonight'' / or I can't do that on sat as need to see mum / or everytime I go shopping - will mum need that / like that'
I have battled with myself for ages whether to give up work & have mum move in with me...however, I love my job & I know from family members & a good friend who did this, its not the same, its very hard and at the mo when I see mum, its really lovely getting hugs goodbye at the door and having a laugh with her & the staff (not always...she does have her off days!)
spent most of last weekend with mum, but have a very bad cold at the moment & I KNOW I shouldn't go to see her, I'm full of cold, tired..but the guilt monster is eating away at me.
I am like this every week & weekend -if I don't see mum twice / three times in the week and at least once over the weekend I feel like I have let her down.... I know she won't remember that I'm there one hour to the next.. its just me.
I do have a brother -however, he can detatch himself from mum in a way I just can't seem to do.
thanks for reading -feel almost better for just typing away.
sas
x