Hi Mark,
Pleased to hear you've been to see Mum, but sad for you at the same time. I feel the same today, strangely.
My Gran has been in her Care Home for just a week tomorrow, and although she is settling well, the deterioration in her is quite obvious.
She smiles warmly when she sees us arrive to see her, but today I watched her as the nurse walked her back to the lounge after seeing us out, and I heard her ask "Who was that then? Do I know her?" of the nurse. She sits and chats, when she can, to all intents and purposes knows who we are, then I hear that. Kind of brings me down a little.
But! At the same time, I'm seeing her looking healthy, and she was so much faster on her feet today than she was whilst she was in hospital, she actually surprised me by walking with her head up and she was virtually running!
From the negative of not remembering me, comes the positive of seeing her quite happy in her own little world.
The suggestion of looking for positives is a good one, mate. When you have depression, you can see lots of negatives in things, they seem the most obvious, but somewhere around is a positive, you just have to look under the surface.
Dig deep, honey, it's in there somewhere.
Gill
xx