Just wanted to say hello. My mother has vascular dementia, she had a step change about 5 weeks ago and after sleepless nights, a fall, increased agitation and confusion, we have just moved her into a carehome. As you can imagine, under lockdown this is probably the hardest time to do this for her but we felt the right and only decision in the circumstance and desperately wanted to avoid her falling again and being hospitalised. Understandably my mother is struggling, we are into 10 days and have had some good conversations with her but mainly she is sad, confused and wants to come home. We are sticking with it but it’s hard. She has no idea how progressed her dementia is or the amount of care she needs. She has to be encouraged to stay in her room for another 4 days and then can have a bit more freedom in the carehome and we hope this may help her settle. It has been so hard as I feel I’ve let her down and hate her being so upset. Feeling a bit rubbish so any words of encouragement gratefully received.
Hi,
I am on the forum as my Mum who I care for has also had a huge change this week [was hospitalised for one night as well] She had very mild vascular dementia before Wednesday this week. I may have to make the same decision as you one day and I know it won't be easy. I found this piece of writing on an American website late one night after I had to put my Dad in a nursing home last year and was wracked with guilt. Please realise that it gets to a point where you 'must' look after your own health before you can start to think about looking after anyone else.
Make a Personal Declaration
Think about the following self-statements and decide to make them a part of your daily life:
Taking care of myself is necessary if I am to give care to others.
I know my own limitations and strengths. I seek help when I need it
I have the right to feel what I feel and to express those feelings in a calm manner.
I maintain the right to my own life outside of care giving.
I take pride in my accomplishments and in the courage it takes to perform these tasks.
I realize that I cannot control the happiness of another person. I cannot fulfill all of his or her needs. No one person can.
I have the right of choice, to decide what I will or will not do. This includes the right not to be manipulated by anger, fear, or guilt of my loved one.