I am tired, fed up and I suppose angry. I have not posted for some time now as I am afraid of the future for my wife. Last year was interesting and tense, we celebrated our 50th wedding anniversary last September and the following week my wife was rushed into hospital which resulted in her having a pace maker. Things then did settle down somewhat, although I was having to do more for her by way of washing and dressing etc. There has been some improvement in what she is capable of doing herself, although I still have to be aware of her personal hygiene at times, and I do still have to shower and wash her hair, which can be a little troublesome in making her as she dislikes showers and we only have a wet room. She now has got into the habit of going to bed, which needs my help in undressing etc, and then getting back up again, normally with 10/15 minutes as 'she cannot get comfortable', coming in to watch the television, though not what I might be watching. So I get her comfy, glasses and feet up etc, find her something to watch and after twenty minutes or so 'it's rubbish I'm going to bed'. I have this 24/7, my only escape is shopping on a Monday and Friday. She will not mix with the other residents here or go to a day care centre. There are times when I could just walk out, but I made a vow over fifty years ago to 'love, honour and cherish, in sickness and in health' and that stops me, and on top of all this I am also having to support both our son and daughter as they both go through there own personal traumas. O'K rant and ramble over, but has anyone got any suggestions that might help please.