Im so sorry to hear of your loss Sue31. You will miss your mum dearly. Yes its bitter sweet, but I am so glad you got her a place at the Hospice. And that everyone was with her. They sound wonderful, and it gives me hope that if a Hospice can achieve such high standards of care , that care homes should follow their model. Its clearly achievable. But now its your time to grieve and remember all your good memories. Its one of the hardest times to get through, with funerals, possessions, legal chaos. Make sure you find time for you.
I visited mum a lot before she was buried. Now i plant loads of flowers on her grave. Ive also started planting flowers on my grandparents graves as well. I find peace and time for reflection when I go.
So take time out. Gain comfort from those around you. And use this time to remember all the good times in a way that suits you best.
Ive been going through mum's things very slowly. I make each visit to her home a journey of memories. Time for just myself and mum. A hard job has actually become a lovely step along lifes roads, with mum close by my side.
Thinking of you. Hoping her funeral and next phase of her journey is full of love. Loads of daffodils out at the moment. They bring us hope. Stay kind to yourself. Xxxx