I thought once mum had moved into a home then things would ease up for me and I would actually get my life back but things are getting worse. I actually managed to get NHS Continuing Healthcare for my mum and she moved into a lovely nursing home. The staff are so kind and almost treat her like their own relative. However her condition is deteriorating so rapidly. She spent all of Christmas in hospital and since then has been in and out of hospital so her environment is constantly changing which can't be good for her. As I write I am pretty sure she will be admitted back into hospital tonight. The problem is that she has a lazy bowel as well as dementia. The doctors can't really control the problem anymore. It is horrible going to the home to visit her. She is in a nursing home and the other patients shout and scream a lot. Some are violent. The staff say they keep an eye on my mum so she will not be assaulted. I feel like since she went into the home I have done nothing but take dozens of phone calls a day about my mum, dealing with all this stuff that needs to be sorted out, attending meetings with doctors and consultants plus sorting out loads of stuff about our house. I have also practically become a carer for my dad. He is very elderly and relies on me to do pretty much everything. He refuses to think for himself anymore and asks me questions such as should he finish the old jar of coffee before opening a new one. I have to keep showing him how to do everything over and over every single day. He doesn't have dementia it is just that he was used to my mum doing everything for him. On top of all this he has a nasty temper and keeps upsetting me with his behaviour. For the past two years I have had both parents hurling verbal abuse at me telling me I am a nasty horrible person. In addition to this I have been sorting everything out for them both and cleaning up my mum. I worry I will have a breakdown. As well as this I need to start looking for a job but feel paralysed as though I can't. I think I am very depressed. I haven't even signed on yet as I am afraid that the job centre will have me in every day of the week and I still have so much to cope with here. Sorry for ranting on but just needed to vent.