Hi Folks, Not been on for a while. Have finally been attending Bereavement Counselling (which took 4 months to come through). Didn't know what to expect so went in with an open mind.
Good to be with like minded people in a similar situation which helps. Strange too how several of us lost loved ones all in the same month! Some of the group have not returned since the first session and a new one started this week so.....
Have been given 'homework' to do which has helped so I've been sorting through my dad's papers and things too which has meant tears flowing and emotions being drawn to the surface and the grieving process has finally been put into motion - which is good and has been helped by the counselling. Hence my being able to do what I'm doing. Found some scary bits... ie; a possible step family but will never know.... part of me is angry that I missed out on him and another family may have had him as a dad! Nothing I can do though! Now starting to draw up a picture of what he did in the years I hadn't seen him but tiny jigsaw pieces slowly being found.
Hadn't realised how many pensioners rights groups he was on or that he played darts and such before he became ill - but no idea when that was!
There will always be a huge gap... can't fill that one, but memories will be of how I remember him. Putting the bad ones to bed in the basement so to speak...
Once it's done what's left will be put in a box in the attic with my mum's and other memories.
thanks for listening..
regards
xxxx
Good to be with like minded people in a similar situation which helps. Strange too how several of us lost loved ones all in the same month! Some of the group have not returned since the first session and a new one started this week so.....
Have been given 'homework' to do which has helped so I've been sorting through my dad's papers and things too which has meant tears flowing and emotions being drawn to the surface and the grieving process has finally been put into motion - which is good and has been helped by the counselling. Hence my being able to do what I'm doing. Found some scary bits... ie; a possible step family but will never know.... part of me is angry that I missed out on him and another family may have had him as a dad! Nothing I can do though! Now starting to draw up a picture of what he did in the years I hadn't seen him but tiny jigsaw pieces slowly being found.
Hadn't realised how many pensioners rights groups he was on or that he played darts and such before he became ill - but no idea when that was!
There will always be a huge gap... can't fill that one, but memories will be of how I remember him. Putting the bad ones to bed in the basement so to speak...
Once it's done what's left will be put in a box in the attic with my mum's and other memories.
thanks for listening..
regards
xxxx