Been to see another ch today for mum and yes it was ok one of my sisters knew alot of the staff and seemed happy but it was a nhs ch and needed a little tlc, although the rooms were very nice. I still know what mum will say and she will definitely withdraw from us.
When i am away from her my sensible voice wins saying we are only doing it for mums safety (she's fallen 2 nights running even with us here now and ive come in tonight to most of the kitchen cupboards open and cutlery and dishes all over the place - shes been bored today) but when i am here (shes in bed at the mo and im just waiting for the palliative care sit to come) i find i can't breath, and my emotional voice wins saying how are we going to tell her when it comes to it that she can't stay at home, how can we do that to her.
Feel like a duck floating on top but paddling for dear life underneath.
When i am away from her my sensible voice wins saying we are only doing it for mums safety (she's fallen 2 nights running even with us here now and ive come in tonight to most of the kitchen cupboards open and cutlery and dishes all over the place - shes been bored today) but when i am here (shes in bed at the mo and im just waiting for the palliative care sit to come) i find i can't breath, and my emotional voice wins saying how are we going to tell her when it comes to it that she can't stay at home, how can we do that to her.
Feel like a duck floating on top but paddling for dear life underneath.