We are now at the end of our journey and it's heartbreaking to let go. I gave up work last February to move home to help mum provide full time care for my father. He had been officially diagnosed with vascular dementia 3 years prior but realistically (in seeing his actions) he should have been diagnosed possibly 5 years prior. From last February he was constantly walking and getting up and dressed up to 4 times a night. It was exhausting. By end of April I was physically showering him and helping him dress. Dad was also physically disabled having spent 2 years in hospital as a child with osteomylitis (he had one leg shorter than other). Due to body casting his right leg was also seriously deformed so he walked with a limp despite wearing a built up shoe). He was still walking in April but the sound his bones in hips and legs made was horrible to listen to (brittle dry bones rubbing and clicking). By June we had to get a care package in place to help wash him. In July he was prescribed a morphine patch as his legs were in so much pain. Within a day of wearing patch he was unsteady on feet and stopped eating. I removed it 2 days later as he was vomiting and couldn't risk him choking in his sleep. By September it was evident he was moments away from coming off his feet. We had been requesting an OT visit for 3 months. He was sleeping on a hospital bed with basic mattress but we needed an air pressure relieving mattress. The district nurses had been visiting every other day so were hands on in ordering other bits of equipment to help us (forgot to say we had an alarm mat in place from April). End of September dad's eating was poor (approx 7.7 stone). I took him to the bathroom to change his pad on 29th September and he went off his feet. I managed to get him onto the wheelchair and when mum arrive home we transferred him to bed. He lay for nearly 5 days but the pressure wounds had already started as he was still on basic mattress. On 5th October he was admitted to A&E with pneumonia and transferred to another hospital for 4 weeks. He had a grade 4 pressure sore on tailbone/sacrum and left heel and a grade 2 on right heel. The sacral wound was horrific. I won't go in to detail as you can research. The hospital trained me on dressing his wounds and he was released home on 1st November under "tlc". They said he was within 12 months and I said he was within 3. This was a difficult time for mum and brothers. I had already read up on so much research so had some understanding but they felt I was being the grim reaper and that dad could last year's. 2 weeks after coming home dad developed a fever. I called out of hours who told me to let him go. They agreed to send a Dr and we inserted 2 paracetamol suppositories. Dad had a uti. The next day after more suppository insertion during night, he recovered alert and able to eat. We nursed him through 3 more infections to 22nd December and then transferred dad for respite. Mum and I both shattered. On 30th December we got the call to say he was being taken to hospital. His temperature had spiked the day before and now very low. As of today dad is still in hospital and thankfully our straight talking Dr has told us we are probably within the last week's. Dad hasn't eaten in over a week. He is on a drip and in dreadful pain. We have agreed to trial the morphine patch again. Anything now as long as he is in comfort. My heart is absolutely exploding right now. My father is one of the kindest, sweetest and most honest person you would ever hope to meet. He is just bones. He doesn't and never has complained, moaned or made any vocal displays of discomfort. He is so childlike and looks at you with his gentle eyes. I just want to cradle him all the time and tell him it will be all right. We would love to be able to bring him home to pass peacefully. We will meet with our Dr next week and see where we are but as the Dr said things may have moved on from then. Please say a prayer, not just for dad, but for all who are in their last moments. Let all have ease in their passing as this is the cruellest way to die. I thank God I had the privilege to care for my father.