Hello to you all, I did post one thread in February, just after my husbands diagnosis and you replies were so comforting. Well here we are three months on and I am still floundering. He was prescribed donepezil which totally disagreed with him and after just two tablets I stopped them. He had two weeks of psychotic episodes which I must admit nearly drove me to a breakdown as we received no help or advice from the memory clinic or the G.P. However, Social Services were very helpful and gave me the information I needed to get in touch with carers groups etc. The thing that I am struggling with is my resentment at being put in the role of a carer when I know that he would never do this for me, something he always told me. My husband is 81 and I am 12 years younger and I feel that my life is being taken from me. He wants to be with me all of the time even if I am just in another room I am never allowed any peace. I have talked to him about carers but he flatly refuses and just says that I can do it. He is at the stage where I have to assist in all of his personal needs otherwise clothes are put on in the wrong order, showering him and assisting with the toilet. I just hate it. I know this is a dreadful statement to make and seems uncaring but most days I wake up with a cold feeling in my stomach just dreading the day ahead especially if it is raining when we have pacing for hours on end. I do take him out everyday shopping & we have coffee or a meal out but as soon as we are home the difficulties start. I just feel trapped and I do apologise but I need to know if other people feel this way, does it pass or does it get worse?