I really feel as though im at the lowest point I can go, my husband was sectioned in December and straight from there in he went to a ch, but since being there I have noticed the decline in him and although he recognises me as his wife that's as far as it goes, he is now fixated with another female on the unit and they have been found together 3 times [that I know of] in each others room both half undressed and there is no doubt what they had in mind. today I got the call to say it had happened for the 3rd
time and I am ashamed to say I drove the 2 hour round trip to let him know what its doing to me as his wife, I even made him take his wedding ring off and wouldn't give it back and told him if that's who he wants then shes welcome as I refuse to be with a cheating lying b*****d, even as I was with him he left me to go and sit with her and I lost it completely with the pair of them. he doesn't even realise he is causing me so much pain. I know its the illness but I cannot condone it, I just cant say its ok hes sick, hes my husband and I married him in sickness and in health but how do I cope with all this, I feel as though my whole world has been ripped apart and I don't know where to turn, i said to the manager that he has to be moved to another ch I cant sleep or eat worrying and thinking of it all, if I close my eyes I picture it and if he stays there im just waiting for the next phone call, they said they will move her if possible to the unit upstairs so they are apart from each other, but in my heart the damage has been done how can I act normal with him and pretend it never happened. this illness is horrific, it doesn't only take the person with the disease but destroys the whole marriage. if it was my father or brother I could say 'its the disease' and make excuses but when its my husband it feels as though my world has collapsed around me and I have nothing to hold onto anymore, every tiny little piece that I cling onto is being snatched away and nothing is left for me to hold and cherish ever again.
time and I am ashamed to say I drove the 2 hour round trip to let him know what its doing to me as his wife, I even made him take his wedding ring off and wouldn't give it back and told him if that's who he wants then shes welcome as I refuse to be with a cheating lying b*****d, even as I was with him he left me to go and sit with her and I lost it completely with the pair of them. he doesn't even realise he is causing me so much pain. I know its the illness but I cannot condone it, I just cant say its ok hes sick, hes my husband and I married him in sickness and in health but how do I cope with all this, I feel as though my whole world has been ripped apart and I don't know where to turn, i said to the manager that he has to be moved to another ch I cant sleep or eat worrying and thinking of it all, if I close my eyes I picture it and if he stays there im just waiting for the next phone call, they said they will move her if possible to the unit upstairs so they are apart from each other, but in my heart the damage has been done how can I act normal with him and pretend it never happened. this illness is horrific, it doesn't only take the person with the disease but destroys the whole marriage. if it was my father or brother I could say 'its the disease' and make excuses but when its my husband it feels as though my world has collapsed around me and I have nothing to hold onto anymore, every tiny little piece that I cling onto is being snatched away and nothing is left for me to hold and cherish ever again.