Hello fellow travellers,
I say that because we carers have a long difficult road to follow. Just when you feel that you are on a little bit of smooth road, you just don't see the bump ready to knock you off course.
I thought that I had most things under control as we enter the third year of my husband being in care. I had started to feel a little less guilty and perhaps a little more relaxed, I visit every day just to make sure everything is ok. Then today I looked at him and I could hardly breathe, I just wanted to hold him forever, he looked so confused and fragile.
I always read TP daily and some of the heart rending posts make me realise that I am fortunate that my husband has the money to pay for his care. With that said, I don't want this half life, being a widow in waiting, I want our life back the way it was but of course that's not going to happen, I hate this illness and the devastation it causes.
I say that because we carers have a long difficult road to follow. Just when you feel that you are on a little bit of smooth road, you just don't see the bump ready to knock you off course.
I thought that I had most things under control as we enter the third year of my husband being in care. I had started to feel a little less guilty and perhaps a little more relaxed, I visit every day just to make sure everything is ok. Then today I looked at him and I could hardly breathe, I just wanted to hold him forever, he looked so confused and fragile.
I always read TP daily and some of the heart rending posts make me realise that I am fortunate that my husband has the money to pay for his care. With that said, I don't want this half life, being a widow in waiting, I want our life back the way it was but of course that's not going to happen, I hate this illness and the devastation it causes.