its only been eleven days since mom passed which I know is very early days but I feel so messed up today. since my wonderful mothers final hour I have had the most over whelming sense of peace and calmness. Until today! Now I feel nothing except empty. for a few days all I seem to do is stare at the wall, i'm not thinking its has if my mind is blank! I'm not in denial I know she's no longer here in the physical sense but really feel her all around me. I went to visit her on Monday in the chapel of rest but still I felt like she was behind me and it wasn't like her I was looking at. I've always believed the body is just a vehicle its the soul of a person who makes us what we are and this was never so true as it was on Monday. I was going to visit again before she's laid to rest with my dad but I feel she is with me everywhere more than she was in the chapel of rest. I have been grieving for mom for a long time as this cruel disease slowly took her bit by bit but its this empty numb feeling its has if my mind is blank! I'm not looking for answers I just needed to write where I know people understand.