When you feel you are coping, or you have your head in the right place.. then covid19 comes along....
I really have been OK, but now when I wake up the first thought in my head is my daughter and her broken marriage and two small children, followed by the hugeness of Covid19, then reality hits like a wall - 'What will he get up to today?'
I have got used to no empathy, no feelings whatsoever, the total selfishness of him now he is tightly wound up in this dementia bubble.
I have told you about all the stuff he has bought online and the trials of sending it all back, apart from the piano he decided to keep.....
But not about him going for a walk in the remote lanes around here and getting lost
and him going out and simply not being here when the carers come -
I cannot get him a tracker because he doesn't have a smart phone, but leaves his phone home anyway.
I am not his wife and cannot physically stop him going out - he is six foot two for heaven's sake, to my five foot.
Today I had to cancel a telephone consultation with the Dr he had made, as he wanted to talk about 'getting a new colon' - we have done this so many times but he doesn't remember
Today I have had to explain to him that he shouldn't be stopping the bus driver and talking to him about going to town to go to the shops that are shut.
Today I have had to tell him that the big recycling bins do not live in the house where he had brought them, but in the garage.
Today I am struggling in our rented home, because in this hot weather we have not had a working shower for two weeks, even though the agents keep telling me it is 'in hand'
Today I advised my daughter to ring the police if her estranged husband gets violent.
On the brink of Coronavirus, his family and I had arranged a move for him - but now it is not happening................ I can only talk to you guys, and I do not want to bother his family as being 250 miles away, they can do nothing and have their own difficulties....
thanks for being there, take care and stay safe.....
I really have been OK, but now when I wake up the first thought in my head is my daughter and her broken marriage and two small children, followed by the hugeness of Covid19, then reality hits like a wall - 'What will he get up to today?'
I have got used to no empathy, no feelings whatsoever, the total selfishness of him now he is tightly wound up in this dementia bubble.
I have told you about all the stuff he has bought online and the trials of sending it all back, apart from the piano he decided to keep.....
But not about him going for a walk in the remote lanes around here and getting lost
and him going out and simply not being here when the carers come -
I cannot get him a tracker because he doesn't have a smart phone, but leaves his phone home anyway.
I am not his wife and cannot physically stop him going out - he is six foot two for heaven's sake, to my five foot.
Today I had to cancel a telephone consultation with the Dr he had made, as he wanted to talk about 'getting a new colon' - we have done this so many times but he doesn't remember
Today I have had to explain to him that he shouldn't be stopping the bus driver and talking to him about going to town to go to the shops that are shut.
Today I have had to tell him that the big recycling bins do not live in the house where he had brought them, but in the garage.
Today I am struggling in our rented home, because in this hot weather we have not had a working shower for two weeks, even though the agents keep telling me it is 'in hand'
Today I advised my daughter to ring the police if her estranged husband gets violent.
On the brink of Coronavirus, his family and I had arranged a move for him - but now it is not happening................ I can only talk to you guys, and I do not want to bother his family as being 250 miles away, they can do nothing and have their own difficulties....
thanks for being there, take care and stay safe.....