Hello everyone. I have stumbled on to this site and decided to register. My husband was diagnosed with AD in September 2019, though I suspected it for about 18 months prior to that. I am struggling as he is just not the same person - he is being verbally aggressive at times and I can't even ask if he has taken his medication without him getting very annoyed at me. I went to bed late on Christmas day, he was already asleep and as I lay down I thought ,"I can't do this, I don't want to do this, I would rather just die." My mother died in 2001, having been diagnosed with AD 5 years earlier, so I know exactly what we are in for. As we have some savings and own our own home I know that we will have to self fund everything. I won't just lose the man I have been married to for 47 years, but probably all we worked for together too! The information pack given to me by the Memory Clinic doctor, just left me sobbing at 2 in the morning. I know I am being selfish and moaning, after all, as he says, there is nothing wrong with me, but I don't know how I am going to get through this, I wish I could "fast forward". I am so sorry to rant like this